“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” Oscar Wilde

"Be yourself; everyone else is already taken." Oscar Wilde

Welcome to my new and improved Blog.

I decided it was time for a change!

I write this Blog for me, no one else, just me. It is a way to think outloud, and to share my experiences with the world. Maybe some will be interested and some will not, and who knows, I might figure something out myself. I will talk about whatever comes to my mind, and sometimes it is hard for me to do, but I will do it anyway.

I enjoy photography so you will see a lot of my work. I love to read and you will see quotes from my favorite authors. Generally follow my life as try to obtain my undergrad in Art History and English at Carleton University.

Please read, enjoy and comment, open disscussion is welcome.

Friday, July 13, 2012

This Blog Has Come to an End.

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.” ― Dr. Seuss

 Well, this is the end...Let me say I have been struggling with keeping up this, and struggling about ending this blog, but in my heart I know it is right.  I have not time to write, I can barely keep up with life, and hence, no time at all to blog. I am sure the few of you who come here notice that of late, I never update, and honestly, I don’t have all that much to say these days. I don’t want to complain, I don’t want to be one of those happy people who is completely upbeat and talks about nothing, and talks about everything. I don’t feel what I have to say is that important. Life is busy, crazy busy.

School, family, life...

School is my salvation as of late, I need it to keep me sane, to give me direction, and learning makes me smile and I enjoy what I see around me. I am meeting people I enjoy, and wish to continue to get to know and move on with. Grades are fine, and this coming year I finish my electives and then the year after I do my Honours papers, and I will be done Undergrad, then on to my Masters in English. That is going to take some work and dedicated time.

My family is growing up and decreasing. My daughter has graduated from Concordia, Bachelor of Fine Arts with Distinction, and we could not be prouder. She is flying on with her life. Go Miranda!

My son is growing and changing into an awesome young man. He will be 11 soon, so much yet for him to discover and do. All his teenager firsts are to come. Nathan I hope you will handle them with grace, and style and intelligence, and not give your parents any more grey hair. 

My Husband and I will be 30 years married this summer. Not an easy time it has been, but we are still here. My in-laws are very ill, and we live with uncertainty. My Mother in law is entering into the last stages of Alzheimer’s. We are all pitching in to help with her until we get her into a care home. My Father in law just had Cancer surgery – survived but has a long road ahead. My parents so far are in good health, no one knows what will change.

 My life is an unexplored road, in which I travel and have no clue where it will lead. Things are so uncertain, and things will change, and I have to focus on the above to be able to get through it and have the strength I need to be strong in whatever capacity I am needed. So no time to write and upkeep a blog...Maybe one day I will come back, as a different person, as I am becoming my own person, finding my own strength, and insights. However, for now my focus is my life, my family, my school...  

However, for now, I leave you with a quote

 “To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson 

Ciao, Adieu, until later. And Cheers!

Love and Best Health to all
Sharon from the Creek

Monday, December 19, 2011

And it is at an end

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.
Henry David Thoreau


I am done the semester and did fairly well, but did not reach my goal of all A’s, close, but not quite.

American Literature, A,
Canadian Historical Art, A,
Aboriginal Literatures, B +

I am moving up but still have trouble with sentence structure and syntax.
All my Profs say that my arguments for my papers are really strong. Actually, Aboriginal Lit Prof said IF I was a stronger writer I would be an A+ student, and she sent me some links to help me achieve this, and said she would help me anytime on anything! HOW did I get so lucky? I have met some awesome people who have offered to do what they can to help me! I even convinced one Prof of what I was arguing in my Poe Paper. I just about fell over on that one, because he is a hard man to change his views or mind, especially when he said straight out, “Write the f**king paper Sharon, but I warn you I don’t agree with where you are coming from. BUT all you have to do is argue and support it, and you will get a good mark.” BUT now he is learning towards my point of view! YES! YES He admitted it in writing!

We have had some good literary arguments this semester that ended up with me ticked at him, because he constantly plays devil’s advocate...he should have been a lawyer. However, I end up laughing. Grant you there were times I sat in his office after lectures and just listen, the man is so knowledgeable! I usually asked a lot of questions, and this added to the experience of what I thought was going to be a dry class. But it was far from it! These arguments or discussions made me think, he had me doing extra readings to get in the extra thought and knowledge of some of the theories of the times. I learned so much about early America and how it developed, and I have read lots of Henry David Thoreau lately! Transcendentalism was a huge influence to many authors. AND some here in Canada

Hearts on Sherbrooke

BUT this grammar issue is a huge frustration for me! I can’t for the life of me figure out why I have no clue about the mechanics of Grammar. YEAH! YEAH! I know I have improved 100 percent but there is still issues that drive me to drink! I went to school, I graduated, and yet I look at a sentence and sometimes cannot figure out what is wrong with it. I know I am not alone. BUT this makes me pull at my hair in frustration. I feel so stupid at times and feel like the school system failed me at some point! I sit there sometimes and look at my papers, and say I have NO CLUE! I know academic grammar has to be flawless. I am not even sure I can achieve this. SO this summer I may not take a summer course and just work on studying Grammar. I have a tutor, but I need someone more, who has this grasp...I hope I can get one of my helpful Profs to answer my questions! I wish I could take a class or find a class; it doesn’t seem to be out there at all! Parallel structures, verb tense agreements, number agreements, and some of it is just sloppy editing skills, I still have to fine a way for me to correct with a list! I find this stuff difficult; especially when they say the sentence is awkward, because it sounds good to me. EVEN after it is marked I have to go and ask WHY?

I need to pray to the Grammar GODS!

Next semester I am looking forward to quite a bit. I am taking Literary Theory. I looked at the books and we are to look at: Some Ghost stories, Horror Stories (Classic’s of course, so more Poe, possibly Shelley, and a few others) plus a text book in Lit Theory! I see I really need this class for my papers. So I am thrilled to be getting the Prof I am told is the “good” one, I had friends that took it this semester with another Professor and they hated the class, the Prof was awful!

The next class is Intro to the Novel...now this class in the last few weeks has been interesting. I was in my University Class site and saw that the class Instructor had been changed from one Professor to another Professor. I met this Prof last year, and he introduced himself as Matt. NO Clue who he was until my American lit Prof told me. They share an office. AND I am thrilled about the change; he is such a nice man to chat with. I have met him all over campus and chatted with him about his twin 9 yr old boys and different things! Although last week, I was back on the site and it had reverted back to the original Prof. WHO I have heard about lately from other students and more than one is a BIG JERK! SO I quickly emailed the English Department and asked what is up. It is still Matt teaching the course. Apparently Web CT had issues and reverted back to an older file. MY biggest reason for being happy with Matt is I don’t have to read Charles Dickens...I am not a huge fan. Bores me to tears! But I am reading Moll Flanders (read that Last year) Frankenstein, and Norris’s McTeague...Finally something new and that I have never heard of before!

Miranda and I being Silly in Downtown Montreal!

My last class will be French Impressionism in Art Histoy! With the Prof in Art History that I have been with the longest at CU, I have taken 5 classes with this man, a big Santa of a man and so funny! I am almost done in this department. AND honestly I can’t wait. It has gotten so bad there I don’t want anything to do with the snobbery or the internal politics’ in the department. It is so small that this is constant. SICK OF IT. A friend of mine, who was going to do a Masters, has decided not too and changed his classes to the Humanities!

I have some electives to finish up and my advisor asked me to pick a minor, and I think it will be in History. I have talked to my Mentor and he said he had to think about it. His first reaction was History because I am always asking what is going on to influence their writing. Then he said Gender Studies, because I always ended up talking about these issues in my papers. I asked about Religion, he said he had done a minor in Religion and although it is useful, I have a good grounding in that. I have also talked to a number of Students in the English department and they say this is a good compliment to English, and Art History. SO next fall I will start with one course and see how I like it and go from there, unless they offer something awesome in the spring.

Miranda on stage

Miranda is ending her 3 years at Concordia this spring. She will have her BFA In Theatre and minor in English. We got to go to Montreal to see her in her first Production in a long time. It was AWESOME! It was Called Witchcraft and she play one of the female leads, Violet! She is a awesome Actor! She is thinking about doing her MFA, but we shall see what happens!

The cast of Witchcraft

So there is my University Update and a short family one... I am enjoying the break, because I really worked my ass off this semester. BUT I am exhausted.

Happy holidays everyone.

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Photo Bits and Quick Bits

Class does not compete with trash; and Hunny you are not the trash! Allen Ley

A friend of mine said this to me when I really needed it, and I keep it as a way to feel good! Thanks Allen!


Fall is upon us....

I am back in full swing at school! Received my 1st A in American Literature. What a nice way to start the semester.

Nathan is now taking Karate, and is loving it, and I am loving it too! Doesn't he look Fab in his Gii!

But with fall comes changes.
Seasonal changes, mood changes, life style changes. A number of my friends are making major changes in their lives. I think hard ones. I think about them and send them good thoughts and positive vibes, prayers. My Life is fine, no need to make changes.

Some are having health issues, and although my blood pressure is high, these issues seem more substantial. I send them my positive thoughts and prayers too.

So back to work. Not much time to write a full blog, but I wanted to share some photos I took on a work break.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Back to the Grind

“Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising which tempt you to believe that your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.” Ralph Waldo Emerson

But it really isn't a grind...


Since I started this University thing, four years ago, I have discovered many things about myself. I am able to do this, maybe not as fast as the younger set, but I hold my own. I enjoy doing this. NO, I love doing this. I am passionate about English and love discussing the books that I read. Although, I do have responsibilities to my family, which sometimes get in the way, I will spend every possible waking moment in doing what needs to be done to improve myself, encourage myself, and make myself stronger in my writing ability and in seraching out the themse or devices that are used in the works. I only control the path I take but not what happens along the way so this is one heck of an adventure.

I got up this morning and before I had my first cup of coffee drank; I was researching my second paper of the term. I have my first paper in the final stages and to be handed in tomorrow. Yes, the GEEK that I am started a paper before classes started. I never would have done that 20 odd years ago!


However, I am back at it. Therefore, this blog as you all well know, will be going on Hiatus for a while, while I research the 5 papers I have this term; 3 for American Literatures, one for Aboriginal Literatures and one for Canadian Historical Art and just plain juggling family life, household chores, and Supreme Chaos! Although at times I will feel I am losing it, I will get through it and love most of it! I might post the odd photo, but that is about it, no time for deep musings.

So check back once and while to see if I have posted, but do not hold your breath. I will be busy...maybe I will post my first A paper here...one never knows.

Have a great Fall!

Wednesday, September 07, 2011

The Summer that came and went!

“What appears to be the end may really be a new beginning.” Anonymous


Man, has it been one busy summer!


Nathan’s tutoring is over and he is back in school, and taking Karate! Miranda started yesterday; her last year of University, WOW seems like yesterday she was just moving to Montreal and starting at Concordia. Tomorrow, I start back with a 3-hour lecture in Canadian Historical Art, and then Friday, Studies in Aboriginal Literature, and American Literature up until 1835. I think it is going to be an interesting semester.


A friend of mine asked me last week to come over and take a picture of a field she had planted, just birdseed, which are mostly Sunflower seeds. Up grew this amazing field of sunflowers! She was looking for a natural way to keep the geese out of the hayfields that come through, land in her fields, and destroy the grass in the fall. She is not sure that this is going to work but I think it is a great idea try. Plus she can look out her window and see this cheerful mass of yellow. I will let you know how it turns out. It is right along highway 148, just outside of Thurso heading to Montreal. People just have to stop! To take pictures because it is just a huge mass of yellow! It is very beautiful.


My friend, Barb, is a huge supporter of the Relay for Life. She has a team and participates every year. And so she put up a sign that says, “Pick your own sunflowers and just leave a good will donation in the box for my Relay for life team” And you know what? People are! They stop, pick, and take pictures and leave a donation. Talk about a wonderful idea!


Now isn't this a great idea and a great way to end the summer?



Saturday, August 06, 2011

The Sum of all Parts

I was asked to contribute to discussion group about aging in our 40’s.... Honestly, this is hard  to accept, but I like who I am and here is what I wrote...

The Old Lady in the Mirror or the Sum of all Parts

Good idea, good thing to quote, there are many parts that make up the sum of the equation that make us, well us, or women.  I agree with what Marie has to say, there is more to us than what we see in the mirror, I am going to give you my limited experience, which means I can only talk about me, how others perceive me is their problem.  I can’t change their views or opinions so I can’t talk about others, well, because I am not them and their experience is different. 


To each of us the idea of aging comes differently and we all deal with it differently, which is why talking about it is mostly a good thing. I am not going to be blessed enough to look like my mother, who is a natural beauty and never had prematurely greying hair. BUT Is there anything wrong with the box of dye I use to colour my hair?  I don’t think so, it just a part of the sum, a small part of the equation. I need that box of dye to aid me in working on my inner self and YES I having trouble dealing with aging...you're damn right, not ashamed to admit it! If this box of dye makes me, feel better in some small superficial way...then by the God’s!  I am going to do it.  Yes, I do try to look younger, feel younger, (and I don’t feel a day over 30) and yes I have no control over my aging body unless I take it to the “BODY SHOP” and have a nip, tuck and lift overhaul! That is not going to happen. The jowls are going to happen, the my crone face will appear, but  Crone is a harsh word,  and has bad connotations, so I will say , the face of wisdom and a well living life, will appear, but for now I will dye my hair, get my nails done and try every skin cream out there! Does that make me a cop out, and a bad example? No, I do not think so. I still do not wear more than eye makeup; I do not sleep in socks with petroleum jelly on my feet. I will look after myself as much as I can, with my box of dye on my hair!  Until I am ready to set that aside and feel confident to be my well lived self. Most importantly, it makes me feel good about the outside of me, which will go through to the inner me, then so be it, but it is a small part of the sum.  But if some feel the sum of who they are needs a nip and a tuck...then who am I to judge. Go to her girlfriend! If this aids in working on the inside, by taking the mind off the outside, do it!

Now in saying all of the above, I would not want to be young again. I like who I have become and becoming. I am stronger woman in so many ways. I take no shit from no one. I say what I have to, to be heard. I do not dress to please others; I dress for me, to make me feel confident and sexy. In that way, I am being ME. BUT the Confidence is what I need more than the sexy. I want to be that woman who people notice and are not sure why, and it is not that I am sexy or all that good looking to others, it is that confidence that they see and feel emanating from me. THIS is what I want younger woman to notice about me and yes men too...both need to learn what an older woman has to offer and can make others notice.  So the answer to this equation is Confidence which emulates from the inside rules! And others will see this above the hair dye and the nip tuck. Yes, I am still on the superficial as some may call it...but our outside is part of the sum.

Now I will tell you another story, another part of the equation that adds up to my total sum. 4 years ago I walked into University for the first time in my life. Scared! I had no clue if this was right for me...but I do have a group of women friends who supported and still support me in this endeavour.  I could not have done this without them, my family, and the Professors, that knew damn well how unsure of myself to be there. Or maybe they could see it, I don't know. Going back to University, I think this is confidence building for me. In this way, I am working on the inner me, my mind, forcing me to deal with myself worth on my own terms. I had to deal with looking at all these smart and beautiful young women, and feel, well OLD, so out of place and not very smart. I remember thinking...OMG what have I done to myself, I don't belong here!!! At the time I thought it was the worse thing I could have done for my self-esteem. But as I grew and worked, and struggled with relearning to learn, BOY had things changed since I was last in school! Learning it was ok to be me, and ask for help,  started to see who I was and who I was becoming was not so bad, to find that confidence within.  The young people saw that confidence, and wanted to know what I had to say, asked questions, some you will not believe and others I have had to set straight, well with my experience. I enjoy hearing their view points and how they are different from whom I was at that age, but their experience is different from mine. They do come looking for me, wanting to take classes with me. And it is confidence building and enlightening to see so many view points. Some good, some well....

Where am I going with all these sums? Well, they are all sums that add up to the one equation that is me. Yes, most days I look in the mirror and go WHO THE HELL IS THAT? When did she arrive and how can I get rid of her, but what I am looking at is the sum of the outside, and I have to remember the inside.  That is the part I like. Even though there is some more work to do too but I am constantly creating myself, and I quote George Bernard Shaw
You use a glass mirror to see your face; you use works of art to see your soul”.   I will keep creating the art of my inside and use the mirror to see if I succeed in being, happy with whom I am now, for tomorrow I will change and grow yet again with my hair dye in the closet waiting for the next touch up.