Mom worry hits hard this weekYou know the kind...the kind that sneaks up on you when you not paying attention.
And it hit me as I was walking through a mall.
I was sure I was prepared to send him off to school but then it hit me.
No snuck up on me when I wasn't looking.
It just gobsmacked me right in the face.
My stomach went into knots and my mind started to race with thoughts of school.
And my baby being there.
When I was out with Nathan today and saw the back to school stuff is starting to come out.
And it scared the heck out of me.
Nathan starts school August 30th and I have to buy him clothes and a school bag and lunch bag and school supplies, he is just starting to write his WHOLE name, he knows his abc's and can count to 50. BUT he is not quite 5 yet. Ok he will be in a couple of weeks but he is so small.
OMG will he make friends or will he be a bully or the target of a bully?
He's only weighs 34 lbs.
I don't want him to be a loner but he is the type of kid that is happiest with just one or two kids, more makes him nervous.
He's just like his father.
Will he listen and behave in class?
Will I be getting calls from the school?
Will he want to learn or find it boring?
Will he hit or scream when he gets frustrated.
He still forgets to go to the bathroom when he is totally absobored in something.
Note make sure he has extra clothes.
And what if he doesn't like school and wants to stay with Mommy. That is going to be totally hard to do. Wanting to keep him with me and sending him anyways.
Nope I'm not ready to send him to school.
Not ready at all.
I thought for sure I'd be doing the happy dance.
I don't think I will.
I'll do the same thing I did when Miranda started.
Nope not ready, you can't make me ready to send him
But ready, he is.